They say being a mother is the most precious thing in the world for a woman. I was not sure of this quote all my life and thought of it as another gimmick of patriarchal society that we live in. Even after getting married I still couldn’t imagine myself becoming a mother in fact I thought I was too young for motherhood!
But then change is the only constant and so I had to ultimately take the plunge. With me discovering that I was carrying a baby the feeling that I had will always be cherished by me and it is beyond words to describe here. This good news marked a new phase in my life, the precious ‘9 months’. A timeline that was filled with never before felt emotions, the physical transformation, the coming of age, and a precious gift at the end.
Here are all the ‘mixed, pure and positive stages’ that I experienced as I looked upon the coming of Riaan.
- Denial mixed with Happiness:
Oh! is it really true? Am I actually going to deliver a baby? Am I old enough to have a baby and take upon the responsibility of a new being? These were some of my initial thoughts when I came to know about this good news. No, I wasn’t unhappy as some of you may think from the questions, in fact, I was elated but yes a kind of denial was in my mind.
- Happiness mixed with a lot of question marks:
At around two months, I gradually started coming to terms with this fact which filled me with an unparallel happiness. The next two months or so was a phase where searching queries on internet, visiting the doctor and talking to my mother about varied things kept me busy. Questions of all kinds like do’s’and don’ts in terms of food or is my baby okay kept coming in my mind.
- A lot of question marks mixed with Track mode:
The curiosity level kept increasing day by day. With a number of tests being conducted on me, the tracking phase of the nine months started. From a friend, I got to know about a website where I could track my baby’s week by week growth and development. (I must admit here that at the time of pregnancy sharing your queries with friend’s can be quite helpful.) Each week I would look forward to the new mailer from this website that had the headlines like ‘Your Baby 6 Weeks’. With each progressing week, I started to enjoy and becoming confident that my baby was doing good.
- Reshaping mixed with shopping:
About four months of pregnancy, the reshaping phase commenced turning me from a zero tummy lass to a ’rounded person’. I felt more like a sumo wrestler. A few days more I turned into a glutton who would always end up over-indulging in food. I managed this with shopping. As the months went by, shopping for cute little things that would be used for my baby made me look at things in sheer optimism and glee.
- Anxiety mixed with anticipation:
The last few months were a mixed bag of emotions. As the countdown had begun each passing day made me immensely happy at one moment and anxious a bit about how things will shape up. The eagerness to hold the little one in my hands was the one thing that kept me strong. Meanwhile guessing games and finding good name kept me, my husband and my close pals super occupied.
- Welcoming Riaan!
This was ‘the moment’ and after few hours, I had left every agony behind as I had thought I was holding him in my arms. My baby, my Riaan. The feeling I had – simply Priceless.
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